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. . . No, we won't.

But would it be an acceptable exchange if you could be as happy as you were in that dream? We'll never know that either.

Do you think it is impossible for me to be that happy here?

I don't know what is or isn't possible. Those answers lie only with you.

[ Though it was certainly the first time Venti had ever seen him so at peace ]

[ He reaches across the table and offers his hand to Venti, palm up. ]

[ He doesn't hesitate to reach back, taking that hand ]

[ He laces their fingers together, giving Venti's hand a little squeeze. ]

I am happy here though I do not always express it in the most obvious of ways.

Here I have the freedom to be Zhongli - rather than shoulder the responsibility that was mine for thousands of years.

Here I am allowed to be vulnerable in front of you, Caeli, and all of Heart Soldier. It was not something I would ever have allowed myself back in Liyue.

I do not want to downplay that...

[ He brushes his thumb over Zhongli's knuckles, mustering up an expression that's less dour ]

In other words, you're telling me I needn't worry.

I do not think telling you will stop you.

But yes.

Unfortunately, I can't seem to help it. You'll just have to forgive me.

It's only fair after all.

[ And he gives Venti's hand one more squeeze before pulling away. ]

I would not stop worrying if you asked me, too, either.

[ Ducking his head. After so many solitary millennia, it's still a foreign thing, being worried about. ]

I'm probably too selfish to ask you to anyway.

You are quite preoccupied with how selfish you seem to be.

There is nothing wrong with having wants and desires. Especially considering your domain.

Ohhhh, trust me, no one could possibly accuse me of not leaning into my wants and desires.

[ Unless it's about emotional intimacy, in which case bye ]