[ A rueful smile ] I relive it every second. Seeing it again won't break me open. But if it'll help get you to keep petting my hair, then by all means consider me about to crack.
And you have a right to know, anyway. Everyone here does.
[ She opens her phone and plays the damn thing again. She doesn't look at the screen, because she doesn't need to. ]
[ Surprisingly or unsurprisingly, depending on what she was expecting, there isn't much of an outward reaction from him. He sits in thoughtful silence for a while after the memory ends.
He's tempted to ask if she remembers any of the context, but suspects the answer will be something like "Does it really matter?"
(And it does, he thinks, but that's a hypothetical argument for the hypothetical future) ]
[ Sadly, she has no context. If she did, that might make this very slightly less horrifying, if only because she'd know why, and maybe how to prevent it. But there weren't even words in her head during all that slaughter, no human feelings at all, just a red haze of rage. ]
Knowing this place, they'll give me every horrible moment of my past except what I need to prevent ever doing that again. But I have to try.
[ Glancing over, ] I know you've seen a lot, but I don't want to just assume you're fine spending time with me after seeing that.
[ Hair ruffles are almost as approved as pets! Especially when they mean something other than the cold shoulder. ]
Zhongli said something similar when I showed him. -- Yes yes, I took your advice, gloat if you need to.
But if you know what it's like, I guess you also know that it doesn't help to hear that other people did terrible things too. Nothing helps. I have to live with that, and I will, but please don't try to talk me out of being miserable about it. I'd prefer to keep liking you.
Ehe, well . . . we're cut from much the same cloth, he and I.
But as for me specifically, I've never been in the habit of telling anyone how they should feel. Those things belong only to you. And even if I tried, it's not like I would succeed, right? Certainly not against anyone so stubborn.
Of course, by that same token, you've no power over how I feel about it. And I still feel that you're my friend.
Hey, my stubbornness is a point of pride. [ It cuts both ways, and she knows it, but some things are just baked in. And to that end, maybe she should revisit that conversation she had with Zhongli, if for no other reason than she doesn't want to risk Venti being something with her over the matter. ]
I'm in no position to turn my nose up at anyone who wants to be my friend. Especially someone with such good hands who can also get me drunk.
Of course! What better reason to keep someone around? [ You have to do way better than that to get her to blush. ] Don't forget the drinking, that's important too. But if I had to pick just one, definitely being good in bed wins.
Needy, really. [ She doesn't entirely believe him, only because her definition of needy doesn't involve a lot of patience and he does seem to have a fair bit of that, at least in comparison to her. But she's not going to argue with his description of himself, of course. ] Likewise. We might be dangerous together.
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And you have a right to know, anyway. Everyone here does.
[ She opens her phone and plays the damn thing again. She doesn't look at the screen, because she doesn't need to. ]
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He's tempted to ask if she remembers any of the context, but suspects the answer will be something like "Does it really matter?"
(And it does, he thinks, but that's a hypothetical argument for the hypothetical future) ]
I see. I understand why you're concerned.
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Knowing this place, they'll give me every horrible moment of my past except what I need to prevent ever doing that again. But I have to try.
[ Glancing over, ] I know you've seen a lot, but I don't want to just assume you're fine spending time with me after seeing that.
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I could be saying the same to you. After all, I've done my fair share of terrible things as well.
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Zhongli said something similar when I showed him. -- Yes yes, I took your advice, gloat if you need to.
But if you know what it's like, I guess you also know that it doesn't help to hear that other people did terrible things too. Nothing helps. I have to live with that, and I will, but please don't try to talk me out of being miserable about it. I'd prefer to keep liking you.
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But as for me specifically, I've never been in the habit of telling anyone how they should feel. Those things belong only to you. And even if I tried, it's not like I would succeed, right? Certainly not against anyone so stubborn.
Of course, by that same token, you've no power over how I feel about it. And I still feel that you're my friend.
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I'm in no position to turn my nose up at anyone who wants to be my friend. Especially someone with such good hands who can also get me drunk.
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Uwah, I see. You only love me because I'm good in bed. ♪
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Ahhh, it's good to be useful!
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Ehe, but I can also write something quite scathing and rude . . .
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Any songs about your sexual prowess, though, that should be as public as possible. I'll even help you perform it.
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Mostly I just needed to laugh for a second, sorry. I make no promises to behave better.
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[ Leaning over to help herself to his arm and her head to his shoulder, just leaning there for a second. ] Thanks for listening to all that.
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Wrapping his arms around her properly, hair petting not even pausing ]
No need for anything as formal as thanks. You can complain anytime and I'll listen.
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Careful now, if you're too nice to me I'll never leave you alone.
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Me personally, I'm looking forward to every moment!
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