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outofoffice) wrote2020-12-15 10:02 pm
outofoffice) wrote2020-12-15 10:02 pm
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[ Rather than a voicemail, there's just a brief melody on a lyre ]
[Yeah that part is stupid and the consent is a little dubious anyway!]
You're right about that. I think we're all resilient enough to deal with it, but the drinking is a nice distraction.
[He says it like he isn't a hair's breadth from trying to drown himself in wine til he has no thoughts for a month.]
You're right about that. I think we're all resilient enough to deal with it, but the drinking is a nice distraction.
[He says it like he isn't a hair's breadth from trying to drown himself in wine til he has no thoughts for a month.]
Resilience is certainly not a concern of mine.
Happiness, though . . . that more so.
[ Eyeing Pavo sidelong as he says it ]
Happiness, though . . . that more so.
[ Eyeing Pavo sidelong as he says it ]
Edited 2021-04-19 01:25 (UTC)
I for one am exactly as happy here as I usually am.
[read: he hasn't been truly happy in like 4 years]
[read: he hasn't been truly happy in like 4 years]
. . . What a concerning statement, Pavo . . .
[Pavo is just tipsy enough now to actually pout at that response.]
It is not.
It is not.
Why don't you tell me, then?
[ Going back to lightly strumming at the lyre strings -- a peaceful Mondstadt tune now ]
What happiness means for you.
[ Going back to lightly strumming at the lyre strings -- a peaceful Mondstadt tune now ]
What happiness means for you.
That's simple. Good wine on a day off.
[surprise surprise he's full of shit]
So far, most days here have been days off.
[surprise surprise he's full of shit]
So far, most days here have been days off.
Hmmm . . .
That can't be the meat of it, or you'd be so happy all the time you'd be nearly insufferable.
That can't be the meat of it, or you'd be so happy all the time you'd be nearly insufferable.
Am I not?
[but he tries so hard to seem like a cheerful but frustrating person--]
[but he tries so hard to seem like a cheerful but frustrating person--]
You're coy!
There's a difference, dear Pavo, but perhaps the vast majority cannot spot it.
[ from one cagey bastard to another ]
There's a difference, dear Pavo, but perhaps the vast majority cannot spot it.
[ from one cagey bastard to another ]
[siiiiighs and shrugs
well. this is why he thought Venti would be a good person to talk to. He knows he needs to be seen through but it's still annoying when it happens!]
You've caught me, then. I'm a miserable liar.
well. this is why he thought Venti would be a good person to talk to. He knows he needs to be seen through but it's still annoying when it happens!]
You've caught me, then. I'm a miserable liar.
Hmm . . . it seems there's not much I wish to do with this victory.
Well, other than to learn the answer to my earlier question.
Well, other than to learn the answer to my earlier question.
Happiness, is it?
[Hmmmmmm it's actually hard to answer that honestly. Not just because he doesn't like vulnerability, but because he's not sure what the answer is.]
Happiness is... a place where you belong, maybe.
[Hmmmmmm it's actually hard to answer that honestly. Not just because he doesn't like vulnerability, but because he's not sure what the answer is.]
Happiness is... a place where you belong, maybe.
I see.
[ Lyre pluck lyre pluck ]
And is that a place? Or a group of people? Perhaps even one person.
[ Lyre pluck lyre pluck ]
And is that a place? Or a group of people? Perhaps even one person.
...All of the above, maybe. But in my case, it was always a lie, so I don't suppose it matters.
[So really -- has he ever been happy in his life? He has, he thinks. Just only in moments where he let himself forget it was fake.]
[So really -- has he ever been happy in his life? He has, he thinks. Just only in moments where he let himself forget it was fake.]
Always?
And what of the Knights? Mondstadt? Noctua and Celes?
And what of the Knights? Mondstadt? Noctua and Celes?
...
[mmmmnnnnnggghhhh maybe he shouldn't TALK ABOUT THIS but he sort of, manically, doesn't care anymore??]
It's lies. Everything I've built with them is a lie. Everything about me is a lie.
[mmmmnnnnnggghhhh maybe he shouldn't TALK ABOUT THIS but he sort of, manically, doesn't care anymore??]
It's lies. Everything I've built with them is a lie. Everything about me is a lie.
. . . You'll forgive me for saying so, but I think your perception of the situation may not be entirely reliable.
There's their feelings to consider, for example. Their love for you is genuine.
And then there's yours too. I know how you feel for Noctua, and I saw how quick you were to lay yourself on the line if it meant the Acting Grandmaster's safety.
There's their feelings to consider, for example. Their love for you is genuine.
And then there's yours too. I know how you feel for Noctua, and I saw how quick you were to lay yourself on the line if it meant the Acting Grandmaster's safety.
I'm not denying that I care about them. But I already know it won't last. Other than Noctua, none of them know they've been deceived. Their love is for the face I chose to show them. As for Noctua...
[That one he at least can't say is fake. But that's still not okay!]
...He's the last person who should invest in me. He knows it's only temporary.
[That one he at least can't say is fake. But that's still not okay!]
...He's the last person who should invest in me. He knows it's only temporary.
Ow! You...
[He tries to make a grumpy face but it's just kind of pathetic.
...Instead, he's going to go for another drink. That's the clear answer here.]
[He tries to make a grumpy face but it's just kind of pathetic.
...Instead, he's going to go for another drink. That's the clear answer here.]
[ I mean that's why the bucket of wine is here ]
He has free will, just as anyone else.
What he should or shouldn't do, he decided for himself. And Master Noctua isn't one to make his choices lightly.
He has free will, just as anyone else.
What he should or shouldn't do, he decided for himself. And Master Noctua isn't one to make his choices lightly.
[yeah and he's gonna drink the whole bucket]
Master Noctua seems to be under the impression he can rewrite fate by being stubborn. And you of all people should know that's not true.
Master Noctua seems to be under the impression he can rewrite fate by being stubborn. And you of all people should know that's not true.
I of all people don't believe in predetermined fate.
And I know exactly how powerful stubborn people can be.
And I know exactly how powerful stubborn people can be.
Hmph. Then when I fall, it'll be my own weakness. Either way, I'm just a sinful existence. And last time he realised that, he left.
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